Somewhere But Nowhere
How often we feel like we are stuck somewhere but we belong nowhere, it’s like somewhere stranded in the middle of an island nor you can’t get away with that neither you can stay there. All you wanted to do and think was/is SURVIVAL. Not able to build a better scenario than this because if I start building more scenarios around it, will make things MORBID and will take you to whole another tangent and I don’t want to make anyone feel the same.
You can see the place far off from where you’re but all you FEEL is you’re stuck in a pit from where you want to get up and get going ahead but you aren’t able to apparently this turns out to be the way that we live every day these days, we are so engrossed that we are making it worse for us with every passing moment because instead of DETANGLING, we end up running around the bush even more. Not because we don’t have the clarity it is because all we end up doing every time all we tend to do is PANIC and react in all the irrational ways possible.
While trying to seek CLARITY and CLOSURE. Yes, It’s obviously very difficult to shred away the bullshit and enjoy the lightness of now. Our mind remains the pit stop of all the thoughts which shouldn’t be thought. Even after knowing that nothing matters except the few people who do make a difference to your existence. Sooner or later, it becomes clear why WE ARE THE WAY WE ARE. Because we over think in a million ways and then we doubt ourselves in different million ways.
So many moments, so few realizations. So many thoughts to catch up on, so less time to do the same. Trying to find answers that are hidden deep inside us but we have got deviated from the thought process of it so forget about question being in line with the question and answers. It’s a sort of a never-ending loop that we have created for ourselves and all we are doing is merry go round around it. The closer we feel we are getting is equivalent to being at home but not feeling like home. We want to seek for more or maybe other answers like we are exploring all the available options. All we end up feeling is more miserable and more vulnerable. We wish if being overwhelmed with our emotions would be considered good and not a sign of weakness we would have never been in this position to talk about it to anyone.
A Quote from ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES held me in such a way that I can’t even express it in the right term, SOMETIMES I SAY AND DO THINGS WITHOUT THINKING, AND PEOPLE DONT LIKE THAT, PEOPLE LIKE LABELS. THEY LIKE PUTTING YOU IN A BOX. THEY WANT YOU TO BE WHO THEY WANT YOU TO BE. NEITHER PEOPLE LIKE ANYTHING MESSY OR DIFFERENT. That’s where the happiness lies eventually I guess all we are trying to do is to not go through another of those terrible times. We can’t keep going through the same pain we have felt once. Yes, no can make you go through it again.
A Quote fro VIRGINIA WOOLF “My own brain is to me the most unaccountable of machinery always buzzing, humming, soaring roaring diving, and then buried in mud. And why? What’s this passion for?” Are we going to get away with this passion? What are we trying to achieve with this passion?
All we have to do is to start talking TRUTH about ourselves in order to talk about TRUTH to other PEOPLE. You need to OPEN UP to other people to let them OPEN UP for YOU. Yes, of course not each and every person deserves that but the one who takes efforts. The one who makes sure to be around you even after knowing then I believe we should take this PLUNGE. The truth is that no one will be able to HELP YOU to overcome it but all they can do is to make it less unbearable for you to go through it or maybe less miserable too.
You need to keep yourself giving all those CHANCES that come to YOU because not all of them are going to work and not all are going to FAIL. Yes, it is going to be tougher then YOU and I can imagine. But it is equally important to give ourselves time to HEAL and get back in the GAME. Learning the ART of LIVING in the MOMENT and getting AWAY with that bullshit and ENJOYING the LIGHTNESS of NOW. One day at a time if that feels too much how about one MOMENT AT A TIME. Because SUN will keep reflecting back to us.
